Birthday is a terrific time to appreciate the development of the past year and look forward to a new cycle of growth. As the Sun returns to its natal position each year, it shines light on our core life intent and makes it easier for us to live from our center (i.e. the place of rest, peace, power and authenticity). Many people consult their astrologers around their birthdays for this very reason.
Today is my Solar return, and I wanted to meditate a bit on the core life intent represented by my natal Sun:
Sun’s Sign & House Placement
My Scorpio Sun in the 8th house suggests that one of my core life intent is to heal and integrate a wide range of human emotions, from the deepest feelings of anger, fear and shame to the height of joy, unity and compassion. The 8th house association with “matters of death” in this case also suggests a process of ego transformation, which is basically dying to your old self again and again.
Position of Sun’s ruler: Pluto
The position of the Sun’s ruler may also illuminate where the core focus of life will be. Scorpio Sun’s ruler is Pluto, and in my case Pluto is found in the 7th house of relationships with others. This has varied implications, from whom I will forge lasting significant relationships (people with deep insights and emotional intensity) to what will catalyze my transformation.
The “T” Word Is…
Transformation is a euphemism for the intense emotional process that involves many unpleasantness (for me, at least.) Typically you don’t “transform” when everything is going great in your work, relationship and family – so universe sends you challenges. Repeatedly. Until you get it.
Recently the challenge that has been coming up for me was how to let go of needing people’s approvals in order to feel okay. A situation has come up where I felt attacked and disapproved by others, which really bothered me for days.
To come back to my center, I had to let go of my pride again and again, which definitely felt like dying – but otherwise I couldn’t function in compassion. I’m learning that forgiveness is a gift not for others but myself, and that my pride has to die in order for me to give this gift to myself.
Operating From the Center : Intent for the Next Year
For centering, meditation helps, and so does contemplative physical exercise. I started the morning with some tai chi and meditation, and I feel more centered than I have in days. For today, my practice will be to operate my whole day from this restful place. For this year, my intent will be to keep discovering what takes me away from the center, and to keep letting go of my old emotional wounds as they surface, so more of my inner light can come forth.
If you recently had your birthday or are expecting one soon, what does your Sun’s (and its ruler’s) placement suggest your core life intent is? What can you do this year to live more from that intent? Please feel free to share through email or comments.