There were several possible options that I was contemplating on – some of them made more sense financially – like going back to Japan and getting a job through my father who lives there; but it felt so wrong to leave the relationships I have here just for that.
Others involved a radical change of direction. I have consulted Noel Tyl over this, and we had a great discussion that helped me let go of a direction I was trying to force myself to take (i.e. a career that would earn lots of money but wasn’t really ‘me’.)
The consultation has helped me narrow down the possibilities for sure, but I still found myself unsure about the exact course of action for the next 6 months, and thinking about yet another set of options and generally driving myself nuts (I’m used to aiming at a certain goal at any given moment.)
Then I came upon this simple yet powerful advice yesterday, from one of my favorite minister: “Turn off your head, and listen to your heart.”
Upon hearing this, I suddenly felt calm. The options I was contemplating felt rushed, artificial, and premature. I felt that I am in a “between” state of calm between action. Today I took a long walk in a park, still listening with my heart. Again, there was a sense of peace, even though there was no direction.
I think sometimes you just need to wait. I’ve made hasty decisions before, and jumped into do things that I wasn’t ready to do – ended up wasting a lot of time and energy (money too). So right now I’m letting this sense of peace guide me, until it starts to direct me into a certain direction (thank goodness I’m not immediately out of work!)
I feel a bit funny writing this, as astrologers are supposed to know the answers. But even when the astrology points you to a certain direction clearly, sometimes it takes every bit of courage to be able to follow your God given destiny – in that sense we’re like everyone else.