Emotional Awareness in Relationship and Healing

“Are you in touch with your feelings?” My roommate suddenly asked me today as I came home. She is my greatest teacher in self growth, so it makes me alert when she says things like this.

“Have you not been dealing with your emotions lately?”

I thought for a second and replied “Well, come to think of it, I was feeling so good a few days ago, but for these past couple of days, I haven’t been able to feel my heart. Am I bothering you?”

If the last question (or this entire conversation, for that matter) sounds strange, I asked this because people living around us tend to pick up our emotions when we choose not to deal with them. Buried feelings don’t die within you – they just sort of leak out into those close to you, and they get affected*.

Anyway, my roommate said “Don’t bury your feelings – you need to feel it and deal with it, so you can heal it.” and left it up to me, so I went into my room to sit by myself for a while, to see if I could get in touch with my emotions. It is true I was feeling a bit restless for the last couple of days, but I didn’t think to pay much attention to it or go deeply into it.

On my couch, I instinctively curled up in a fetal position to try to feel inside my body (instead of my head), and immediately recognized how much I was abandoning my emotions – many feelings began to come up – fear, anger, loneliness, abandonment – and by being with these emotions I started to feel nurtured and “filled up” emotionally.

I went through this process for about 30 minutes, felt considerably more whole and shared the experience with my roommate. She said “you’ve been out of touch with yourself for a long time – if you had been in touch, you probably wouldn’t have chosen to be an actuary (which was the pathway I abandoned after speaking with Noel Tyl, despite passing a couple of exams already).”

It seems that I was so strongly in my head exercising my mental faculty that I lost touch with the fullness of my emotions, and therefore my body (where the emotions reside.) Now that I’m gearing up for what I was made to do – an alternative healing career – it seems my emotions are waking up deeper than ever.

The process I’ve described is a very abbreviated version of the “inner child” therapy, which I may write more about in future posts, but here I wanted to document my personal experience as I’m making a move from my head into my body and emotions. This is certainly a change worthy of transiting Uranus conjunct Ascendant, which is happening for me right now.

I’m starting to feel certain parts of my horoscope come to life – it’s got to be the Moon. How full it feels! I considered myself to be pretty emotionally aware, but I see that there is much more depth to the inner ocean.

*This kind of dynamic in relationship gets talked about in John Gray’s book (I believe the title is “What you can feel, you can heal”, but he may have talked about this in other books as well.) As an example, if you are angry at your boss at work but don’t deal with that emotion, when you come home, your wife may suddenly start acting angry at you for no reason – she just might be picking up your suppressed aggression.

About Hiroki Niizato

Hiroki Niizato is a professional consulting astrologer in Florida, serving clients in US and abroad. He has been practicing astrology professionally since 2001. Hiroki is a highest honor graduate of the demanding Master’s Degree Certification Course in Astrology by Noel Tyl.

You can contact Hiroki via email at: Hiroki@hniizato.com or Phone: 727-470-4056 to ask a question or schedule a consultation.

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